Day Two
The second day in. In the web of the amazing Doamna Ezada Sinn. It is a marvelous web, because it is about Her. She is the Center. The Beginning. my worship to Her is not intended on a reward for me, but just to magnify and honor Her. Close your eyes. Imagine a pedestal of Divine proportions. On that pedestal is She. Prayer in the common sense is all about requests. Worshipping The Doamna is all about Her.
Having said that, it's hard for a novice like myself. i feel that my dedication to Her could very well be genious and sincere, my body at times is still overwhelmed by physical aspects of "my kink". The inferiority derived from Her Superiority is a big, big turn on for me. Never have i met anyone, who has been so elegant, naturaly dominant and confidently aware of Their Superiority like The Lady Ezada. It's only been the second day that has been blessed with a ritual of devotion to Her. So i'd best take it easy.
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donderdag 10 juli 2014
woensdag 9 juli 2014
Day One - The difficulty to clear ones mind
Day One
as instructed by The Lady Ezada i started the worship ritual by taking a shower. i made sure i used the shower to clean, and not to enjoy a warm comfortable shower. i kept it luke warm, used a bar of soap on my body, in stead of the normal shower gel. All this to get aware of the intention of the shower. To clean yourself because you are about to worship The Goddess.
i have not been able to do all this without getting arroused. The knowlegde that the ritual was to prepare myself for Worship made me even less prepared. The focus went from the preperation to the arrousement. i had to take a walk outside to clear my mind. Even then, i had difficulty to not harden up during the entire ritual. It seems that my parts are still being controlled by my own mind and fantasies. i feel a quite guilty about this....
Kneeling down and opening my ipad with a picture of The Lady Ezada made it even more difficult not to focus on my own arrousal. The Lady Ezada is so utterly stunning, and Her in high red soled and toeless shoes, Her perfect body in a perfectly fitted red dress.... It's just very, very hard...
It's strange to see that 5 minutes actually take a lot longer then i thought. It's been great to able to get back down two times and worship a bit longer. The focus on the clock distracts. That's for sure.
The Mantra that The Divine Lady Ezada provided is amazing. It is medetative and a delight to say. 5 minutes was however not really long enough to feel the words. But, small steps, right?
It has been a privilege and Honor to be able to worship The Lady Ezada using the ritual handed down by Herself. Thank You soo much.
I think tomorrow i'll try to start the ritual after a walk outside. Maybe i can then start with less tention.
ayni'or
as instructed by The Lady Ezada i started the worship ritual by taking a shower. i made sure i used the shower to clean, and not to enjoy a warm comfortable shower. i kept it luke warm, used a bar of soap on my body, in stead of the normal shower gel. All this to get aware of the intention of the shower. To clean yourself because you are about to worship The Goddess.
i have not been able to do all this without getting arroused. The knowlegde that the ritual was to prepare myself for Worship made me even less prepared. The focus went from the preperation to the arrousement. i had to take a walk outside to clear my mind. Even then, i had difficulty to not harden up during the entire ritual. It seems that my parts are still being controlled by my own mind and fantasies. i feel a quite guilty about this....
Kneeling down and opening my ipad with a picture of The Lady Ezada made it even more difficult not to focus on my own arrousal. The Lady Ezada is so utterly stunning, and Her in high red soled and toeless shoes, Her perfect body in a perfectly fitted red dress.... It's just very, very hard...
It's strange to see that 5 minutes actually take a lot longer then i thought. It's been great to able to get back down two times and worship a bit longer. The focus on the clock distracts. That's for sure.
The Mantra that The Divine Lady Ezada provided is amazing. It is medetative and a delight to say. 5 minutes was however not really long enough to feel the words. But, small steps, right?
It has been a privilege and Honor to be able to worship The Lady Ezada using the ritual handed down by Herself. Thank You soo much.
I think tomorrow i'll try to start the ritual after a walk outside. Maybe i can then start with less tention.
ayni'or
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